cacophonia feltus fecit - a selection of thoughts by Tobias Feltus.
Invented Word of the Day for Today, Some Time in May, 2007
1. The human disposition to make oneself miserable through fictional mental masturbation.
From the moment she was one second late, his drink changed guise from being a refreshing quench of anticipation, to an autohugoist brother of his calvinist nature.
[comes from Victor Hugo's title "Les Miserables" + Gk, comb. from of autós self + -ismos, -isma n. suffixes, often directly, often through L -ismus, -isma.]
1. The fruit of self inflicted fictional mental masturbation [see autohugoism]
...After several hastily consumed glasses of house white (which, one reminds, was originally chosen to not have stained teeth in presence of the date), he started to uncontrollably scribble down a list of potential reasons for which she had not turned up, erupting in a volcanic frenzy of ill-formed black squiggles in his Moleskine.
In the eyes of desire, there is always something greater. Though not always better,
one's eyes are deceptive, one's imagination vast.
I find it very bizarre how
life seems to run in spurts. even the busiest moments are not a constant
race, but rather a series of sprints interwoven with stagnant moments
of comfortable eclipse. It seems almost as though the timeline of life
is a reflection of the earth's rotation, our wake and sleep, joy and pain,
manic and depression, race and sit. All put together in a series of waves
that all meet at some point, most likely at our beginning and end, as
the biggest wave would be our lifetime as a whole, beginning with a slap
into life, and ending, slowly, by sitting, becoming a couch potato, lying
|live to fuck to communicate
to fuck to live.
I have come to a compromise. After years of trying
to rationalize the purpose of human existence, I have decided that neither
of the two philosophies at stake are more true or false than the other.
Man as an animal: our purpose and instinct is to reproduce, though modern
technology allows us to enjoy without long term consequences. Man as an
intellectual: our purpose and instinct is solely to communicate, something
that we create technology to make more possible on a larger scale. Both
lines of thought explain phenomena such as bullying and the desire for
leadership, and many other problematic behaviours, however I believe that
possibly these do not provide an end other than each other. Both are true.
Why do we wish to copulate? To spread our opinions, to communicate. Why
do we wish to communicate? To attract attention so that we 'get the bird'.